Making a Difference…In my OWN Life.

These days I get pretty excited when I get up in the morning but it wasn’t always the case.  I remember the days when I dreaded hearing the alarm clock go off knowing that I would have to face another day in a job that I really wasn’t all the fond of was literally making me sick.  Oh it wasn’t the job because I loved the clients however behind the scenes the job was toxic.  Now when I think of toxins, it seems that the last ones that come to mind are the ones that are in the air and the ones that are in our foods.

It very well may be that the most toxic environments are the ones that we live in (family), work in and the ones that we share and talk about with others who will listen and if no one is around, it’s the conversations that we have with ourselves.  We’ve become living cesspools and can’t understand why. We have ill health, our children are sick and we’re so busy looking outside of ourselves that we don’t even bother to stop and look in the mirror.  Could it be that that answer lies within?  I know for myself it does.  And I’ve stopped, allowed myself to take a good hard look at my life (and I mean going back to when I was in my late teens) and there was a jolt in my body that I don’t think that I’ll quite ever forget.  What was the jolt?  It was,

   “Could I actually be responsible for all of those shitty years in my life?”

And so began the journey for something more.  And I’ll be quite honest and frank with you, I looked outside of myself for a while because I didn’t know where else to look.  However when I did come to fully realize that I was responsible for my life in all aspects, I need to take some time and have a good long (and some of it was hard) look at myself.

I think back to a little over 5 years ago and I know that I wasn’t the nicest person you could find.  In fact you probably wouldn’t have even approached me.  Such is not the case now though.  I talk to everyone no matter where I am and it seems that people are also drawn to talk to me.  We all have so much in common but we don’t necessarily let ourselves stop to see the genius of it in our lives.

Over the past couple of days (no wait.  Over the past 2 years), I have met and spoken with so may incredible people that it is just amazing.  My life is so full now where before there was something missing.  Hmmm, well not exactly something rather ’someone.’  That someone was me.  Yes indeed.  I wasn’t showing up for my own life.  No wonder I felt alone so often.  No wonder I was in search for something more.  No wonder…I finally woke up and decided to take charge of my life.  And I look at mySelf now, and I can now see who I am in the world.  Not only that, I can now feel who I am in the world.

I emailed a friend of mine a few days ago and shared with her that I feel as though the world isn’t big enough for me anymore.  Indeed I’m reaching out to the universe and ‘we’ seem to be working quite well together.  So what I’m saying here is, “I used to see myself as small and insignificant.”  Such is not the case now.  And I’m also not saying that I think or feel that I’m better than anyone else.  I just realize that I do make a difference in other peoples’ lives and…I know that I couldn’t make a difference in their lives until I started making a difference in my own life.

Now I don’t even look at the fact that I’ll living my life.  I see so far beyond that and realize that life for me is so much more than ‘just’  for living.  Life is about ‘EXPERIENCING.’  And every day to me is an experience and I experience it fully.  Fully alive and present to myself is the best of me that I have to offer anyone.  By living my life as an experience, I allow others to consider the same thing for themselves. 

 ”Is life an experience for you?”  Or are you moving through your world in a way that is habituated without really any thought or consideration for/of the choices that you make everyday?  If this is the case, you may want to pause for a moment and really take a look at your life and consider whether you like it just the way it is, or are you looking for more.  And if you’re looking for more…Great.  No time like the present.  Have you ever thought that you’d like to work for yourself but wasn’t sure what that really meant?  Give me a call.  Have you ever thought that you’re tired of not feeling truly fantastic (whether it be your health or your life)?  Give me a call.  Did you ever think about going to Hawaii or taking some kind or ‘outrageous’ trip?  Then really, give me a call.  And if your life is great, then GREAT!

The funny thing is, I thought that my life was pretty damn good before and it was.  However, now I’ve just upped the anty and I love it.  And not only is my life changing, everyone who comes in contact with me is experiencing changes in their life.

My life is in Full Bloom.  I even have the pictures to show you…but you’ll have to go to facebook to see them.    (So look for Amy McNaughton and check out my pictures of my life in full bloom…or my pictures of Hawaii – cause that’s another thing that I created for myself).

If you want to make a difference in people’s lives, first you must start with your own.

 

Letting Go of the Past AND…Growing Forward.

Amy