No Longer Willing to Lie/Die

I realized a few days ago just how exciting it is to truly live my life for me.  I made a decision that would possibly have others talking about me…primarily my family.  All that I did was…Chose to do what truly was going to light me up by the sheer thought of it.  I decided to spend a couple of days with friends.

Although this may not seem like a really big deal, when was the last time that you chose to do what was right for you in-spite of what others were going to say?  Personally, I rarely did that cause I wanted to always do what was right/good/ would keep others happy and I chose to do it all in exchange for my health.  Yes, every time I did something that didn’t feel so good on the inside – I’d get sick.  Sometimes is would be something minor: a cold, sinuses, sore throat maybe a bit of an upset stomach and…NO LONGER.

Since investing in myself in the fall off 2006, I’ve discovered a lot about the impact lying makes on your body.  If anyone had of told me that even 3 or 4 years ago, I would have thought that they were nuts.  What is it?  “The truth will set you free.”  Oh ya, and then there’s one I’m about to make up.

LIES WILL KILL YOU. 

The more you say ‘yes’ while you’re body/gut instinct/intuition says ‘no,’ the quicker you’ll die.  O.K.  I’m not saying that it will happen over night however have you ever heard something like this before?  “Once they found out the truth about what happened, it’s as though it just started eating them up inside.”  I have heard this before and had no idea that it actually made sense.  I’ve also heard others being called, ‘Self serving cows.’  Ouch!  Looks like I just joined something that I’d never be part of.  Oh ya…it feels great to be only doing what feels right for me.  And if that’s self serving, then so be it.

I tried being every one’s door mat.  It didn’t work.  I had back pain, boot marks where I felt like people kicked me, stab woulds where people ’stabbed me in the back,’ and of course the list could go on.  The funny things is while all these things were happening, I was doing what I thought they wanted me to do.  I was ‘trying’ to keep them happy.  And now they’re because I’ve showed up for my own life,  and serving myself (doing only what feels right for me) now they’re really pissed.    “How dare you start enjoying your life your way” – “Who in the hell do you think you are?”   Haven’t met me yet?  Well let me introduce myself.

Hi!   I’m Amy.   And I’ve decided to Live and Experience MY LIFE -MY WAY

If this is something that you’ve never done before, I highly recommend it.  I’ve tried out a lot of new ‘things’ through the years, but this one really works.  It’s amazing and the results are fantastic.  All it requires is, “That you get honest with yourself and others.”  “That you only do what feels right for you in-spite of what stories others’ may make up about you.”  “That you choose you before anyone else.”

Since I’ve been doing this, my life has been amazing and so has my health.  I no longer have the health issues that I had for years, I sleep well at night, I smile a lot more,  I have lots of new friends in my life and new ones coming in on a regular basis, people want to be with me for Who I Am…Not who I’m not and this list is a long one as well.  Wow!!!  All this and all I had to do was invest in my own life and not anyone else’s.

Have you ever watched a movie and there was a lamb (or any other animal) or a human being sacrificed?  Did the thoughts of ‘Oh my God how can they do that?’  Don’t be too surprised by this but (I, as well as many people) are being sacrificed everyday.  And we’re doing it at no one else’s hands but our own.  We’re making ourselves sick in hopes of being recognized as, ‘kind and loving or giving.’  Guess what I’ve discovered since I started choosing me first?  I’ve always been those things and now they are there more for others because I allowed them to be in my own life first.

 

Letting Go of The Past AND…Growing Forward

Amy